ha thanks. yeah i met someone else and that took my mind from him, but this guy still lingers around in my heart and i have no idea why. he is just so incredibly awesome and i love him so much as my friend. no idea why those old feelings came back again recently.
your palindrome fan club checking in. if i weren't married i'd try to take you out and cheer you up with lots of ice cream or beer, but anyway. i hate to use a cliche but i think pop psychology, whatever that is, puts way too much of a premium on all of this 'closure' shit. our minds are the only really sovereign terrain we have, why do we let oprah et al decree that we have shut down these mental topics as if they're just weeds you pull up? what's wrong with having people like this guy still floating around in there? it's your space, there's a reason he's still lurking, it's okay. it's not like double jeopardy, case closed and that's it. i say feel free to wallow a bit.
Not the brain that controls these things, unfortunately. If it were simply a matter of logic, "if A is not possible, then B is the course of action," you'd have pointy ears and no personality. And your ears are much cuter than that...
Maybe visualize the caveman era ca.1995. Yeah, that one...
Um, I don't know who you are but your cryptic message makes me think you not only know me, but you think you know who I am talking about from my past. This is creeping me out!
So to clear things up, the guy I'm occasionally in love with isn't the guy you are thinking of. And anyhow, I snapped out of it all like, the next day when I woke up.
I figure its ok for people to always long for someone. Even if its someone who broke your heart. As long as you don't make any bad decisions or hurt anyone, namely yourself. I can't help it if I'll always wonder what it would have been like to be with this person who seems to be the male version of me. And I can't do anything about it, so I'll just do like everyone else - suck it up and keep living a happy life!
One thing I don't worry about is love. When it hits me it hits me and I've never once tried to force it. Just happens.
the obvious answer is you can speed it up by falling in love with someone else..! not helpful i know!
ReplyDeleteha thanks. yeah i met someone else and that took my mind from him, but this guy still lingers around in my heart and i have no idea why. he is just so incredibly awesome and i love him so much as my friend. no idea why those old feelings came back again recently.
ReplyDeleteanyhow, i'll snap out of it! thanks xx
enjoy loving him, there isnt better on this planet right? except maybe helping people..?
ReplyDeleteyour palindrome fan club checking in. if i weren't married i'd try to take you out and cheer you up with lots of ice cream or beer, but anyway. i hate to use a cliche but i think pop psychology, whatever that is, puts way too much of a premium on all of this 'closure' shit. our minds are the only really sovereign terrain we have, why do we let oprah et al decree that we have shut down these mental topics as if they're just weeds you pull up? what's wrong with having people like this guy still floating around in there? it's your space, there's a reason he's still lurking, it's okay. it's not like double jeopardy, case closed and that's it. i say feel free to wallow a bit.
ReplyDeletei've been asking that same question since 9th grade...
ReplyDeletei'm 24 now..
fuck.
Not the brain that controls these things, unfortunately. If it were simply a matter of logic, "if A is not possible, then B is the course of action," you'd have pointy ears and no personality. And your ears are much cuter than that...
ReplyDeleteMaybe visualize the caveman era ca.1995. Yeah, that one...
hi More Chi...
ReplyDeleteUm, I don't know who you are but your cryptic message makes me think you not only know me, but you think you know who I am talking about from my past. This is creeping me out!
So to clear things up, the guy I'm occasionally in love with isn't the guy you are thinking of. And anyhow, I snapped out of it all like, the next day when I woke up.
I figure its ok for people to always long for someone. Even if its someone who broke your heart. As long as you don't make any bad decisions or hurt anyone, namely yourself. I can't help it if I'll always wonder what it would have been like to be with this person who seems to be the male version of me. And I can't do anything about it, so I'll just do like everyone else - suck it up and keep living a happy life!
One thing I don't worry about is love. When it hits me it hits me and I've never once tried to force it. Just happens.
FIN.
It's no consolation, but my kid (and I) will love you forever!
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